It really is curious lately.

These last two days? The worst.

Here where I live... there's been a constant blanket of grey clouds looming over us. Now... this is normally something to cheer me up... but I find that lately... my karma runs along with the weather... and storms... they're bad news for me.

Big deal right? Everyone has bad luck. There's the rub of it... I'm having bad luck... but... all at once... I hate it with every fiber of my being... yet... I respect it... and almost... make it grow. Stupid thing to do? I guess... but... it's more complicated. I should probably say what the whole thing is about, right? Okay then... plain and simple, a girl... I'm not sure if she would care if I use her name here... but I figure I shouldn't. This girl... "Tek"... as she's so called here, well... it's complicated. I can't say everything because I've sworn to her so many times not to say... and I've asked her the same. What I can say is... I'm a bit stuck right now. Whatever I decide to do now... it'll anger someone. I suppose that doesn't bother me... if it didn't bother THEM so much. I mean... I've put myself in a bad spot... knowing this all... a bit blinded by... eh... infautation. Last night I realized finally... how bad things will be if I do anything but kindly wait. Heh... I accept this all... with open arms... but it's a bit saddening... not being able to love without all these problems popping up. I know it's bound to happen... but... If people out there wouldn't make it worse... I'd be able to live with it. After I started finally accepting how stupid I am. (I say that because... every person I've ever been so infatuated with... already have multiple people looking for their heart... and even then, they're already "involved") This much doesn't bother me... I accept that... especially since... the people I do end up liking... I like for what's in their head and their heart... heh... so I guess It's good that I'm not the only one chasing after them... it shows right there... that people understand that too.

*Sigh* Maybe things will look up? Who knows... right now... I guess.... I'm content.

~Krai